It’s all rather
surreal. In between spasms and pockets of
activity, campus is eerily quiet. I
emerge from a class with a radically diminished and subdued group of students
to find that the police have been stunning protesters with rubber bullets. It’s all over; the only evidence is the
platoon of cops gathered at their truck down the street, and paramedics closing
their ambulance doors on someone injured and bumping off across the lawns.
It’s surreal participating
in a march intended to show solidarity between students, academics and
management, to present a petition to the ANC authorities. We all
want better funding for tertiary education.
Scarlet and black academic gowns stir with conversation and uneasy jokes. But where are the students? A certain suspicion develops as the march
moves slowly off in the direction of the Town Hall. A student organiser, after a struggle to get
the bullhorn to work, encourages us to shed academic dress and to dance and
sing, “or even just hum”. There is,
apparently, only one approved way to protest – that stamping, singing mode that
to outsiders makes anger look rather enjoyable.
After less than a hundred metres the little coterie is enveloped by a
swarm of running, shoving youngsters, from who knows where? Some are certainly not university
students. A bald-headed man, who may or
may not be from one of the several ‘factions’ making their presence felt,
brings the thing to a halt, engages in vigorous discussion with the Vice
Chancellor, shouts hoarsely that he is “boycotting this march” – which to my
mind means he ought to go home. No one
can hear what he’s saying. I can’t see
this march getting anywhere, so having shown my solidarity with its very
reasonable requests, I leave it and go home.
The cat greets me,
stretching and mewing. She wants to play
and go for a walk. I take her advice and
join her and blow off a little frustration, uprooting alien saplings on the
forest slopes.
Life is very clean
and straightforward for a cat. If it’s
not a direct physical threat, to be avoided or fought, or if it’s not edible,
she just ... chills. She somehow manages to be preternaturally alert and
meditative at the same time. I’m
convinced there’s a lesson to be learned there.
Meanwhile my stomach
churns and my sleep is broken. A sweet
and earnest team of Department of Health statistics-gatherers comes round and informs
me my blood pressure is a bit high. It’s
as if my innards are directly mimicking the chaos in my professional
world. That turmoil is following some
numbingly predictable trajectories; clearly key actors have learned nothing
from history.
History, ironically,
is not on the side of a favourable outcome of the fees upheaval. The protesters – meaning that minority of
people, who may or may not in individual cases be students, who promote a more
or less confrontational approach to the fees problem – are generating an energy
which is temporarily gratifying for them but undermines everyone else. They seem intent on an anarchic and prolonged
closure of the universities, in service of an unattainable goal. Look back at Kampala, Harare, Kinshasa, and
any number of other cases: prolonged and repeated closures have a predictable
outcome. Established academics leave;
richer students leave; funding diminishes further; infrastructure erodes; publications
dry up; research shrivels; a machinery of mediocrity grinds despondently on;
both national and international recognition vanishes, as degrees lose quality
and kudos.
So why do these
protesters persist? Conspiracy theorists
revel in rumours that ‘third forces’ are at play, powers that actually want the fees issue to fail, and the
universities to fail. Anti-government
forces that want the ANC to be seen to fail?
Or the ANC itself, which would love to see these troublesome intellectuals
and uppity youths disempowered? Who knows?
Mixed and leaderless movements disable
negotiations. We want unity on this, but
unity entails compromise; in democracies finding compromises and forging
lasting solutions takes patience – and protesters making demands are by definition neither compromising nor patient. So it goes on. Anger gets misdirected. Enemies are made precisely where allies are needed. Self-defence is turned into racism. Disagreement, even over minor tactics, is
twisted into disloyalty. The rule of
constitutional law is howled down as oppression. Managements issue sensible but
ineffectual generalisations. Social
media bristles with viral lies and distortions and snatches of cell-phone
footage, with unpredictable effects. (We are, the Economist claims, in an era of "post-truth politics", a seriously frightening idea.) Sundry “causes” intermingle, not all
amenable to tactics inherited from the struggles of the apartheid years. The government shows an astonishing and
depressing lack of urgency and leadership, despite a plethora of interesting
and possibly quite viable ideas flowering in the papers and chat-groups.
I watch the cat on
the hill-slope. For a long time she just
settles and sits. My tree-pulling is of no interest. She is entirely self-contained. Yet her ears are flickering and listening
constantly. Finally a scent or a rustle
too subtle for human senses attracts her, and she begins to stalk. She is utterly focused. I call to her but there is no response. When you stalk, stalk. Very Zen.
In my university
context, what am I focused on? In
amongst the mush of administration, committee duties, and of course protests,
what is the task? It seems very clear to
me. I am here to improve my students’
skills. That is my job, and it is the
only thing that university can uniquely provide students, in service of making
them maximally functional citizens. It
is irrelevant to me where the student’s fee-money comes from: a parent, a bank, a
scholarship, the taxpayer, herself. The skills
still need to be taught and acquired.
I am under no
illusion that this is in itself a simple thing.
Literary skills are multiple and complex – more than just reading and
writing. They are perception and
argumentation. They are about values and
ambitions and cultural predispositions.
And things that get in the way of teaching the skills are also multiple
and complex: they can take the form of a student’s psychological breakdown, or
a hangover, or an unfruitful university policy, or an ignorant political decree
from the Department of Labour, or a student's apathy. Or
protesters hounding a lecturer out of the classroom.
Nevertheless, this
one goal in my teaching life helps ground me, and helps direct my responses to
situations as they arise. Things only
happen one at a time, so I try to deal with them one at a time. My focus helps me decide what I can influence
and what I can’t. When something is
beyond me, I remind myself of the cat. I
remind myself of my self-sufficiency. I
sit still. I leave the impossible situation
behind me for the moment and turn to do something else: pull up a Port Jackson
wattle, make something beautiful that might just outlast the fracas of the day,
and might even outlast me. Cuddle the
cat. She likes that, the rich simplicity
of touch. Nothing she does or says is not the truth. I can pluck ticks off her
eyelids. She knows what I’m doing, and
trusts me completely, even when it stings.
Ah, truth and trust. We humans are so bad at those.
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yes, very difficult to get out of the fraught, fractured head-spaces these disruptions are causing...out of the future fears and the "shoulds" and the guilt and blame and shame...the cat knows the answer...
ReplyDeleteThanks for this beautifully written and perfectly sensible piece! It is a voice of sanity in turbulent and confused times.
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